Ha! Yes, this isn’t the first time for me either!

Well, Michelle, you are exactly right about the Joel and me problem. It was a huge wakeup call for Joel and me. Spoiler alert — I did end up “doing more” with the guy — I think I will write about it but not right now.

You know my history. I can’t blame it entirely but my confusion all stems from it. I enjoy sexually inappropriate situations. Sucks.

I never confessed to Joel but he found out through a third party.

That was what hurt him more than anything else…the dishonesty.

He’s a saint. He still loves me. I’m so lucky…

Damn girl every time you respond to my stories I start crying.

I understand what you say intellectually (having such a great connection with someone why would you want anyone else) but I have this really stupid out of sight out of mind thing! Ughhh.

Don’t give me the dice…because it seems like every time I will roll them…let the chips fall where they may…

I need to go to bed now, pull down the shades and curl up into a ball.

Thank you for your wisdom. :❤