Thank you Michelle for your response. I too have a history — I was molested as a 10 year old by a relative. I left that out of the story to you know, “keep it cheerful.”

I wonder if people who don’t have any history have the same domination fantasies? My therapist assures me they do. I’m sorry for your past, I’m actually crying right now. I always make comedy and laughs out of this stuff but inside me is a sad little girl. I don’t know, this is a strange thing to say, but I maybe I just keep making these jokes in the hope that one day I will make her smile again.